Sorry to all who enjoy my work - despite a glut of ideas, I have been  plagued by a creative lag lately. Could it be my lack of ambition? Could  it be that I just want to enjoy the weather while it's nice, and  hibernate when it's crappy? Could it be that I'm just lazy and have no  motivation for art right now?
It could be all of those things.
 Also factoring into the mix : my mom is coming to visit from June  21st-24th. So - I'm probably gonna be cleaning a LOT.. for a whole week.  The only thing that's worse than living in a cluttered place is being  nagged at...for living in a cluttered place! So I'm going to try my best  to put everything to rights before my mom ( aka Ms. Clean) gets here. I  know that it won't be good enough...but it really doesn't stop me from  trying.
Another reason might be that hubby is working all the time,  and I'm usually idle when he's not around a lot - I figure...why should I  do anything when there's no one around to appreciate it? And even if I  actually DO something, I have to point it out when he gets home...and  even then, he's really not interested. He's not an artistic type anyway.  He usually just gives me a cursory "Looks good!" and goes back to  whatever he was doing. FRUSTRATING!
 As if I needed another reason, we might - I stress MIGHT - be moving to  Texas.  We don't know yet...hubby isn't too sure about the way that  they've been running the new Distribution Center so far. So, it may be a  false alarm, and we'll end up living in this putrid, chilly mud hole  until he croaks and I have nothing to keep me here anymore. I'd much  prefer the warm weather of TX to this crap in WA state. It's not fun  anymore (as if it was EVER fun for me).
We're also planning on  buying a house in the next six months. Hopefully it will be in Texas -  maybe or maybe not - a lot of it hinges on hubby's decision. It turns  out that they are sending drivers down there in "start-up teams" that  will be there for two weeks at a time. This will give him plenty enough  time to decide whether he wants to take a gamble on this new DC...or  whether he wants to bet on a sure thing.
Also to be considered is  physical pain.  I've had knee  problems for the past 8 years, and hoped that with surgery, they would  go away. I have also had back pain for the past 4 years or so, because  limping created a muscle imbalance in my back - surprise! Back Spasms!!!  Anyway, since surgery, I've had more knee pain (unrelated to the  previous problem), more back spasms (on BOTH sides now, instead of just  the left), itching and stinging at the incision sites, and my right leg  gets tired easily - from being under-worked those 8 years, and now being  worked much more. The doctor said that it would be 6 months to a year  for me to feel in tip-top shape after my surgery...and at first, I was  driven to prove him wrong. Right now, all I want is relief from the  pain....I'm seriously getting tired of it. I've dealt with chronic pain  for over 8 years now...and the ending seems to be in sight! I guess I'm  just impatient, and I want my body to heal faster than humanly possible.  BACK TO THE POINT...pain can be distracting. It's hard to work at a  drawing or painting when you know that you won't be able to sit there  without pain for too much longer. I swear, anticipation of pain is the  worst.
So, there you have it. My excuses for not being  artsy-fartsy as of late. I'll make it up to you guys...I promise!
 
 
 
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